I remember about 8 years ago when I felt completely out of control. It was a couple of incident that left me completely questioning everything. I was stuck in a black hole, living for everyone else but my self. I was exhausted with 4 children, full time job and I had completely forgotten who I was, my childhood dreams and all the goals I had carried was gone. I was not happy nor sad I was numb and very tired.
During the years that followed I have done my best to changes it, take back the control, as I can only blame my self for loosing it. Fighting against the rest of the world from all of sudden acting different, as well as fighting against my own habits I gotten so used to over the last 10+ more years.
Slowly I began to take control, take control over my thought, finding my dreams, some new and some old. Trying to live up to my own need without feeling guilty which was the hardest part, as I was battle with thoughts of feeling selfish and less caring towards the rest of the people close to me.
Today, many years later I am well om my way, I have found my passion as well as new passions. I have found so many new friends, life is a journey and I am now in it instead of standing by and watching it pass by. So yes, what a blessing to finally having woken up.
taking care of the body and mind goes hand in hand, the older I get the more important it gets to really listen in om your body, and you do it through your soul. For years I did not listen in, well that was not really true. I was listening but I refused to pay attention and that left me with chronic issues, mostly related to my skin. It has been really bad. I believe that was related to me not listening in on my inner soul. I was always the nice one, never getting in to to any problems, always saying yes,even if my heart and mind was saying no. I had been hiding for such a long time that one day my body gave up and I started to get really health issues.It started out as rash around my eyes, not always but now and then, that lead me to understand that my body was now intolerant to gluten, and all of a sudden I became sick from neglecting my self.
My skin is still an issue from time to time, and I notice that what I put in my mouth make my body react to certain things, It sure makes a difference, and the more I eat well, the less tolerant my body gets to when I cheat (eating gluten). So from now on, I have decided to really be good to my self, by that i mean really eating healthy, what ever that means :)- More vegan, less sugar, less salt,and more meditating, pilates and me time.
Follow my example