A look in the mirror, puts me back in my seat again. It’s not that I dislike what I see, but somehow I always expect to see a younger version of myself. And yes, it reminds me of a lost time. Time that is so fragile, and still at your service when you are young.
It also reminds me how many worries and insecurities I had, not feeling pretty enough, not being smart enough. Trying to fit in to everyone else’s world. Not feeling secure enough to strive for my dreams. And I see younger girls in my surroundings acting exactly the way I did when I was their age. Stunning and beautiful inside out and not to mention- they are smart. If anything these girls should rule , but most of them don’t – the men still do.
And I want to scream out , girls stand up tall. You own your world – show it.
And as sure as I am getting older, I become more secure, mature and beautiful inside. I it’s almost as the beauty travels inwards and feeds the inner soul. I love whom have become, I wish I knew what I know today when I was in my twenties even my thirties.
Could it be that my inner beauty is a way for the universe to thank me for everything I have been through over the years?.All the sorrows, confusions, for all the times I didn’t love myself.
Could that be it? Well thank you universe for finally making me understand what beauty is really all about. Loving yourself inside out.
We women are such powerful beings, I think we underestimate how fantastic we are. We give life, carry life and goes through hormone changes through out our life, if it would happened to a man, it would break him down and probably be consider as an illness.
We of us who has given birth knows what it takes to give life. From morning sickness to pouching out a new human being and all the issues that comes after with breastfeeding and complications with your private parts and depression. Let´s face it, your life, body and mind will never be the same. Still we are assumed to go through it and bump back to life as nothing have happened.
So if you have reached the age were childbirth is no longer an topic as well as small children you have probably entered middle age. Hopefully you are at peace with were you are at and feel comfy in your skin. But if you are like many of us, you have had sort of a wake up, where you might have released you are a bit lost. Who am I, where am I heading?
The good part of reaching middle age is that you usually have more alone time on your hands. Time that you should embrace and love. This is when you have the time to rediscover yourself. You might end up wanting to change completely, trade of your spouse, change your career, change your friend and more.
Men usually goes through a fear of death, all of a sudden they reach an age were they understand that they are actually going to die one day and need to live to the fullest while they can. They might go from coach potatoes to Iron man champions. Some might search the attention from much younger women – just to get an approval that they are still in the game..
Whatever you are going through – embrace it. This is life changing for the better. You have done a great journey so far. You have learned hopefully a lot and have becoming a stronger more confident. Crises or not, I think of it as a turning point, a sort of awakening to get you moving. This is the time to restart yourself. Love it, and give it time. Do something for you! this is your time to rediscover your self again – enjoy it.
Yes, i know its a worn out topic these days- but it is so important, I can not stress this enough. I find it sad to see so many women totally lost in a made up world. Picture perfect on the outside but totally empty on the inside.
I see these women, living up to the standard, I do to, to a certain extent, I care about my health, looks but with that said- I also care about my soul, and who I am. I was lost for many years, lost in a fake persona – who I thought I wanted to become. I was striving towards what society made up to be a norm for success, not understanding my own value, or what I can actually bring to the table. It took years to where I am today, and I am still learning, exploring and developing each and every day. Undertand the importance in self-development and always strive to become the best version of you, without being guilty. We women much more then men work from our emotions. Always consulting and considering others before we make our decision. We like to feel that we have a our backs covered, it makes us feel more secure, but is it really? If you always need to have someone else take the lead in your decisions? I´m not saying that it is wrong to consult in others now and then, just make sure that the final decision comes from you.
Because, you can hide for a while, but soon enough it will start eating you alive. And most certain it will either make you sick or make you depressed. So you have the choice, make a good one.
You are here for a reason, live up to that, it´s your path-walk it!